I think he's drawn to Damien at first because he's a priest and a knight of his own order, and then because of Damien's ... everything ... but he does also gravitate towards Ciani to some degree. Their interactions are really fascinating to me, and he ends up teaching her a bit too ...

So many reasons. But I can't tell which ones are the ones that really stay his hand--and of course he can't either.

Yes! And that must tell Gerald so much about him!